Nightmare of Miss Right!

Girls are everywhere these days. Am not sure if I believe the government statistics released the other day that the ration of men and women in Kenya is 1:1. Am a student at Daystar university. Unless it's a matter of the courses that the institution offers, then I do not understand how we can be 10 boys in a class against 30 girls. How does that work?

The challenge however is coping with our emotions. I am 24 years old now. Am sure my mother keeps asking herself when I will be introducing my girlfriend to her. It's hard to find one. I have too many options but it is not as easy as it seems. The girls am eyeing are good for me. The only thing that is confusing is the fact that I can't open up to all of them.

The other day I proposed for a relationship to one of them but I was kept pending. It still stands to date. She never talks about it. I had a crush on another one who told me she is not ready for a commitment but on hearing that I had interests on someone else, came back asking what happened to my feelings for her. It does not work like that.

Is it just Nairobi chics who fear commitment or it's a trend the world over? I am not sure what people keep waiting for. I have read in tabloids and other magazines that men fear commitment but I do not think that that is the real situation on the ground. I wonder how it is possible to wait for perfect conditions in order to start loving someone.

Of course I will be reminded of how the heart needs to heal from past relationships, which in some cases it's like ten thousand years ago. But it is in my opinion sadly turning out to be nonsense. Lets just be. I love you, let's carry on. This does not mean I am inconsiderate of those who have really been hurt. While you keep waiting to heal, the world is moving and those people who want you now will have moved on miles ahead of you the moment you realize that they really meant what they said.

I am still struggling to understand how some chic wants me to feel when she now wants me to be her boyfriend while she refused we become an item five years ago. Seriously, I moved on with life. This is when you're waking up??? My heart is not an organization yawa.